The cleverness jumped outta my head

I'm ending 2013 with a to do list.

-Finish something I started
A book or a blog even...
find a writing coach
- Manage $ better
-Take care of what I have
-Quit smoking...
-finish a post............................

Dream a little dream

I do my best to bullshit my way through life trying to seem "mediocre" smart.  Most probably see through it but I put up a good effort. 

Somehow I manage to have a job that some think is over my head (some days I agree) and pay the basic bills to survive (I'm very irresponsible with my money)

I've had this dream of being a writer (of something people will read -- maybe even pay for) is real.

I keep coming back to it year after year of trying to convince myself that it will never happen, that I'm not good enough.

Maybe one of these times it'll stick.

Kick start

I took it as a sign when I fell out of bed and landed on a shoe that I should get up and start writing.

6:50 on a Sunday morning is a little too early for a kick in the ass, but I took the hint when I fell out of bed and landed on my shoe.  I need to write.

I would have the computer all to myself I thought...

So I get up and wobble out to the garage for a cigarette, make myself some instant coffee (I make it with cold milk so it tastes like those Starbucks things you buy at the grocery store), go brush my teeth and find my spot on the couch only to see my husband with his "don't talk to me I just woke up face" looking at me.

Shit.  So much for writing in peace. 

Not that he talks a lot, just knowing that he wants the computer and is probably annoyed that I'm on it is enough to distract me.

We've been together long enough that his annoyance shouldn't bother me or maybe even bring me a little joy but it's taking me longer than most to get to that point. 

Coffee tastes weird after you brush your teeth...maybe another cigarette will fix that.

I need another laptop

Insert inspirational title here...

In efforts to finish a long time goal, I'm giving myself a detail assignment.  Hints the new blog.  I plan on on describing my days in detail.  Something I'm often told my writing often lacks.

My inspiration to give this another shot, (besides the long shot of becoming a famous author and being able to quit a job I hate) was the death series by JD Robb.  A friend of mine got me hooked on these crack like books and I definitely can learn detail from these books.

Hopefully I  can keep up with this assignment and not  give into my ADD and lack of discipline.

New blog started--Check

Next step is to push this on to my friends and bug them to leave me lots of comments.

Most of my friends know the drill I whine to them to leave comments, then get bored or distracted and quit writing for months and then start the process all over.

Each time I hope that this will be the one that I will stick with, the one that people will read and leave lots of comments encouraging me to keep writing and to finish my book.

Will this be the one?.....