I'm a hater.
It was hard to see all of the happy families and read about their shiney happy lives, when I feel like I have very few people who are "for" me and the choice I've made.
So I deleted my facebook account.
I've kind of closed myself off from the world since I made up my mind to stay in my marriage.
I've always had social anxiety, so it's always been a struggle for me but the shit storm of 2014 makes me dread opening my eyes in the morning.
I know people aren't thinking about it anymore and I should relax and enjoy my life, but in my mind it's like I'm wearing a sign "Married to a Sex Offender...feel free to pass judgement"
Another reason I delete facebook was embarrassment to change my relationship status back to married and change my name back... it's not like you can do it discreetly either facebook loves to send me a notice every time one of my friends changes their relationship status.
I need to stop caring and just live my life but I can't turn off the noise in my head.
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